Went to the cinema with my brother today. We say The girl who plays with fire. I tried not to be so distubed by all the people around me. I dont like going to the movies since people eat and laughe. Really gets on my nervs.

I feel all empty after last night. I sat in the dark with music, a candle and some beer. After a while Michaela come over and we talked, deep talk and the feelings just flowed. You are my princess.

Around 22aclock Petrus came around and he noticed from the start that something was wrong but i convince both him and myself that everything was alright even tho everything was everything but alright.
My ex boyfriend told me a few times that i was never happy whatever he did. and maybe thats true. Maybe i'll never be pleased with what people do for me. My demands are so high so no one can live up to them. The night ended in big tears and chocolate balls

Now im home again and im listening to music. Empty and unable to feel anything right now.